Mind your Pints and Quarts

If no one likes me, nvm… God loves me always… I love myself too… I have my low points, because I’m not perfect. Love me or hate me.

Today started off well, then it dwindled. I don’t know who to talk to anymore. Guess I have myself to talk to and God. I really don’t know. Never mind.

I am searching desperately for an alternative way to make things work and easier for the both of us. No matter how much I tried, it just doesn’t seem right, not yet at least. Maybe I am supposed to stay here while you’re away. I do have unfinished business here and I should not leave without finishing my duties. I have to gather the patience and overcome the challenges on my own. It is a test of perseverance for me, and if I succeed, insya’Allah I will be rewarded. I go through a few stages upon hearing or experiencing something unexpected, which usually is not a positive experience. I listen, stay calm, try to accept, be alone, thoughts starting to run wild, keep thinking over and over again, cannot accept the fact, desperately trying to make things better, find alternative ways, let my emotions pour out, try to calm down, pray to God, feel slightly better, pick up the strength, stay patient and persevere, take deep breaths, accept reality, move on confidently, do well in life, realise that life is not unfair and God has His ways of making us a much better person.